This is my first journal, my premiere ! I must tell, that I´m fascinated of deviantart.com at last days.. I feel, like my minds haven´t got any limits, there is simly everything, all from me, about my life.. So, now I am ill. I received a lot of pills, but I´m still ill.. and I feel ill.. :/ And I´m in depression again, cause I always hold off those "importan" things to school, I haven ´t got any, really ANY presents for Christmas, I feel like nobody.. I feel.. I feel.. I´m just crying, because there´s a grey, nothingness, emtiness, there´s simply nobody for my own.. i miss love and certainty.. no plans, visions.. NO FUTURE ! to the letter.. so bye, write later..